14 months

I feel blessed to have our relationship reach this far despite the many trials we are always facing. The toughest of them all is being far away from you. Everyday is always a struggle for me. Waking up in the morning and knowing that I won't see you later in the day. Going to work and hear my officemates talk about seeing their other half later after work while I get to go home alone. Coming home feeling sad and lonely because I have so many days to count till I get to see you again. It is never easy. LDR's are not for the faint hearted. Fortunately, I have a tough heart.

There have been countless of sleepless nights all because I miss you. Tossing and turning in bed thinking of the day when I get to be with you. There have also been nights when I cry myself to sleep because I feel like I'm losing you. But thankfully, you're still here with me. Every minute of every day is an emotional battle for me. I try my best to contain my emotions but it always gets the best of me. No matter how hard I try not to miss you, not to long for you, I cannot do it simply because I love you and I am missing you everyday.

People have told me that I am one tough girl because I am able to endure all of these. Of course I have to be tough. I am doing this for you. For us. And even though it kills me sometimes, I am willing to be tough for you every single day. 

I love you, Baby. I really do. Things have been really weird ever since you went back to Manila. But I know this is just a test. Sometimes I can be really annoying and irritating, but that is just one of my ways of showing you that I am here for you always. I have to communicate with you everyday so that I won't feel that you're that far from me. I am sorry if I have crossed the lines sometimes. I am sorry if I get jealous over petty things. I am sorry if I lack the effort. And most of all, Im sorry for letting you down sometimes. 

I really wish things would go back to how they were. I really do. But it seems impossible now. So what I pray is that we get to overcome all of these trials together. That no matter how tough things may go, you and I will bravely face it together. You once told me that we'll help each other reach our dreams, so that's what we're gonna do. Please hold on langga. We'll get through this, okay?

Happy 14th Langga. I cannot wait to see you. :) I love you so much. Mwaaaah.

You make me want to change

A great relationship is based on two main principles. First, appreciate your similarities and second, respect your differences.

Before I become too emotional (naks), let me start by saying, I MISS YOU A LOT.

Okay. Here it goes.

6 months into our relationship and 2 months being apart, there's one thing I've learned and that is to make changes when needed. That's what I am doing right now; changing what's not appropriate. And I have you to thank for because had you not pointed out my flaws, I wouldn't have seen how scary as a monster I have become.

I've said this countless of times already, but I feel it isn't enough so I'm saying it again: I am really, really sorry for becoming something neither of us like. That night, that awful night, I felt that my heart was about to break into a whole lot of pieces. I never want that night to ever happen again. EVER. So, I intend to keep the promise I made.

I am not sure but I still think that I'm being punished for what happened. But it's okay. If that would mean that we could go back to how we were, that happier US, then I'd gladly take any form of punishment.

Before you left, you asked me if I could wait and I said yes. The answer still remains the same. I can't wait to see you again baby. Physically and not just over YM. Hehehe.

I love you, Mariolito Aguirre Basas. All of you. The parts that I like and that parts that I don't like sometimes. Hehehe. No matter how crazy, how tough, and how challenging it all becomes, I will stay by your side. Through it all.

I hope you have slowly forgiven me. I know I haven't made that much effort but I'm still in the process. :D And I hope it's still there. You know what I mean. *wink*
 ♥ ♥ ♥

Christmas Wishlist

Its almost the end of November, so its about time that I let my family, friends and generous godparents know what I want to receive this Christmas. Hahahaha. I don't expect to receive all of this but I hope that I get to receive at least 3 out of the 10. Hahaha. Okay fine, 2 out of 10. *wink*

Compared to my birthday wishlist which comprised of trip to Paris, cameras and other things that are deemed very expensive as of the moment, my Christmas wishlist will somewhat be the same minus the expensive things. Hahaha. So here it is, my Christmas Wishlist:

1) TIMEX WATCH. Since I already got an early Christmas gift, I think a new watch from Timex will fit my new uniform. Hahaha. I saw a watch from Timex that I fell in love with. I was planning to buy it for myself but I think it would be much, much better if someone will buy it for me. Hahahaha. So to anyone who's generous enough to give me a watch, please choose Timex. Hahaha.

2) BAG and SHOES. Seriously, I need a new bag and a pair of shoes right now. One that goes perfectly well with my new uniform. 

3) BIOGRAPHY of STEVE JOBS. I have been very much curious about the life of Steve Jobs. You know, the guy who changed the world through his Apple products. Buy me his biography, please!!

4) Or...ELLEN DEGENERES' book. I heard (and read) that this book is hilarious. I seriously wanna have a copy of this too. Hmmmm...I still prefer Steve Jobs' biography but if this is much cheaper, then I'd love to have this instead. ;)

5) TRIP TO CAMOTES. Or anywhere nearer where I can unwind and chill. Accommodation, ticket fare, and etc. shall of course be sponsored. Hahahaha. It should be good for two. My boyfriend has to come along. Hahaha.

6) ADIDAS RUNNING SHOES. I know I'm fat and I seriously need to shed off some of my baby fats so to anyone whose concerned, buy me this running shoes for women from Adidas. This is quite expensive but I hope you won't mind. Hahaha. I still prefer the Timex watch over this one but hey! If you want to buy me this, then that's no problem. Hehehe. I'm a size 9 (or 10) by the way. ;)

7) MAKE UP. From MAC or from LOREAL. That'd be enough. ;)

8) MEDICINE SUPPLY. As for those of you who are close to me, you know that I am under medication for 6 months. So if you're willing to sponsor my medication until the end, then that would be wonderful. Hahahaha :))

9) SEASON 10 of FRIENDS DVD. The Original one please. I don't support piracy. Naks. Hahahaha. I already have seasons 1-9 so I just lack season 10. This is just a minor wishlist. ;)

10) TRIP TO PARIS. Good for 2, of course. Hehehe. I will NEVER EVER take this off from all my wishlist until someone is super generous enough to sponsor this trip. Thank you. ;)

Bonus: Accessories. I super duper love big stud earrings and necklaces. So feel free to include this to one of the the 10 things in my wishlist. LOL.

See? What I want for Christmas is less expensive than what I wanted to receive on my birthday. Hahahaha. These are just material things. What's more important is the sincerity and love that comes with giving whether or not it is in my wishlist. These are just what I want but feel free to give me what you think it is that I need. ;) Baga na jud ko ug face ever!! hahahahah!!

Merry Christmas, everyone!! :)

Letter to an awesome friend

Christine,

Admit it, I am more awesome than you are. 'Nuff said. Hahahahaha! But seriously, you are awesome and phenomenal. Why? Because you just are.

We have known each other since Elementary but we only got close when we got to High School. Remember our "Pop" slow-mo version? The time we were accused of being in a sorority group? Hahaha. Anyway, my point is, our friendship started in a bit crazy way but it was uh-may-ziiing! And not a day goes by that I regret having you as my bestfriend.

You are the Robin to my Lily. The Ted to my Marshall. You have always been one of the most awesome friends I have ever had. From the beginning, I never remembered a single fight that we ever had. Petty fights, probably. But nothing major. And that's what amazes me with our friendship. Over the years, we have remained strong and wise and we have always been loyal to our friendship. I love you for that.

On your birthday, and for the coming years, I wish you even more happiness and blessings. I wish you get to have a stable job and be happy with it. Hehehe! I wish that you and your special someone will stay strong together and beat the odds that will test your relationship. I pray that you find the thing that makes you truly happy and that you stick to it. I pray that no matter what happens, you will never ever give up. Never. And I pray that you continue to be the awesome person that you already are. You are a blessing to a lot of people, Tine. You may not know that. But you are.

This composition may be long if I keep blabbering, so let me sum this all up in three things.

First, an excerpt from a poem by Sarah Kay, The Origin Story, to her bestfriend, Phil Kaye:

But I have seen the best of you and the worst of you and I choose both. I want to share ever single one of your sunshines and save some for later. I will tuck them into my pockets so I can give them back to you when the rains fall hard. Friend, I want to be the mirror that reminds you to love yourself. I want to be the air in your lungs to remind you to breathe easy. When the walls come down, when the thunder rumbles, when nobody else is home, hold my hand and I promise I won’t let go.

Second, I love you always. Forever.

Lastly, and this I say with honesty, You are the second most awesome person in the world for me. Next to myself. Hahahahaha. No seriously, Thank you. For being a great friend to me. I will forever be grateful to you. Always.

Here's to more laughter and adventures with you. HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TINE!! I LOVE YOU!! <3 <3 <3

Worth it.

WAIT. JUST BE PATIENT. HE'LL COME SOON.

Those were the words most of my friends tell me whenever I was doubting whether my love life was gonna bloom anytime soon. Trust me, I wasn't desperate. I just..you know..miss being in a relationship. There's a lot to miss about being in a relationship and it feels really good to be loved by someone else aside from your family and friends. But anyway, the point is, they made me wait. And up until August 21, 2011, I realized that all the waiting was worth it. 

Just two months into our relationship, I feel that I have been with Jun for about a year now. We haven't had any major fights (as of press time), though, but it seems that we've survived a lot of challenges in our relationship. I may sound biased, but to be perfectly honest, I have never been with any guy who made me feel this way. It's like the moment we started our relationship, I knew instantly that he was the right guy. That made me feel that the wait was all worth it. Neither of us planned on falling in love with each other. It just happened. And once that happened, something beautiful was created. I wake up in the morning feeling so inspired because I know that someone in Lipata is loving me back. Everyday, I look forward to the day I get to spend with him. And every single moment, my love for him grows deeper. This may sound really cheesy but I really think, with all my heart, that Jun is the one. ♥

It's true that words are not enough to describe how much you love a certain person, but I'll try my best to put into words how grateful I am for the man who has not only loved me for who I am but has also loved me for who I am not. Langga, this for you.... :)

60 days with you has been greatly fun, Baby. You made me feel so loved every single day even though I don't tell you that. You are a perfect gentleman and you really know how to make me happy. There may have been days where I'm a complete idiot and you don't really get my mood swings, but I'm very thankful because you never made me feel any less loved. In fact, you made me feel that whether I act crazy, weird, or stupid, you still accept me whole-heartedly. You make me fall in love with you deeply every single day and I hope I make you feel the same way. Like I said in the letter I gave you, God really did plan our meeting. He knew that we were each other's answered prayer. I am not the perfect girlfriend and you are also not the perfect boyfriend, but together, you and I make a great pair. You and I, we will conquer the world. We'll make each other's dream come true. And we will make our dreams come true. Thank you so much for being such an understanding boyfriend. Thank you for riding along with my insanity. Thank you for the trust and for the honesty. Thank you for sharing your dreams with me. Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you so much for the love. ♥


It's just You and Me, Langga. Just us two. :)

Happy 2nd monthsary baby! Here's to more adventures and laugh trips with you! I love you! Mwaaaaaaaah! :*